taking control

I've been thinking... the best way to exemplify taking control is by driving.

you take the wheel and when you want to go to the right, you just turn the wheel towards the right and there you g0 - the right way.

if only life could be just that simple, i wouldn't have these headaches and heartaches. but then again, it would lose its value. so i guess i'll just have to stop complaining and take life as it is.

meantime, i think i should start learning how to drive to make up for the fact that i can't take control of every thing that goes on with my life, especially the people around me.

i can't believe i just did that!

ok so honestly i created this blogsite because i dont have an fb account where i can express this feeling i am feeling at the moment. (ive gone through all the trouble of googling a blogsite just for this since my xanga account is already unaccessible..)

first of all, i am seriously mad at my boyfriend for not telling me his whereabouts early today. i mean, that's not too much to ask right? what we have now is not easy considering the distance between us physically. the least he could do is to tell me that tiny detail dibaaaaaaaaa. texting is the lifeline of our relationship. :(

sigh.

on the other hand, im kind of losing the purpose of my decision to deactivate my fb account. im always logging in using my boyfriend's account which i believe is more unhealthy for me than using my own. a few hours ago, an ex dropped by and said hi and i replied. urgh. i could've left it alone dba?? shit. i comfort myself with the thought that i was friendly when i said it's not mark. STILL! i could have ignored it na lang gud? this is so not me! im not a jealous, nosy girlfriend im appearing to be. it makes me sad. i dont like this.

later, i told mark and good thing he was cool about it but then he had to go and tell me about his white lie and now im rumbling like an idiot. so id better shut up na. enough of this and i should really get to bed.