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Like every other young girls struggling to figure life out, I have loved and lost along the way.

In my average existence, I pretty much found myself falling in love a lot of times in the past but there was only one time when it actually took a swing into the real thing.

He was my great love...and at the same time, he's also the one who got away.. or in my case, I pushed him away.

Why?

I have my reasons and he may hate me all his life for that but I just couldn't keep a relationship which most of the other people who matters to me are telling me against it. You can say I'm a coward; that I don't have a backbone to fight for the one I love but come to think of it..would you defy all reasons and your family just for that somebody?

THAT'S JUST IN THE MOVIES.

In real life, You can't.

And well, I can't. But believe me when I say, I tried. For three years, I tried. It may not be enough for some but I grew tired. I couldn't get past the challenges that that kind of life threw at me. I may be weak and selfish for what I did but I want peace and harmony in my life.

As far as moving on goes, I am now happy with my new love and life. I'm not sure if it's going to be great but one thing is for sure, I know I'm having this for keeps. :)